Overwhelmed.

Overwhelmed. Affected. Devastated. Moved. Stirred. Touched. I cannot fully convey or express the feelings or emotions I am feeling right now. All of me wants to express in words the sights I am seeing and feeling because I want so much for you, as someone who is reading this, to feel the devastation in this country and the cry for help that will MOVE you/us to action. This morning we returned to the home for sick and dying infants and I don't know what it was about today but I broke. The sickness and devastation of this sick babies, as they lay lifeless in their beds was almost too much for me to see today. The waiting room was packed with lethargic children and moms screaming for any help they can get. Frustration ran through my heart. The caretakers of these babies surrounded a crib where they frantically tried to get an IV in the head of a baby that was fighting for his life. His breathing very labored as tears rolled down his cheeks. As I stood there staring at the baby boy my thoughts ran wild.."Why, God why?? Why do these sweet babies have to suffer? They are starving, thirsty, weak, helpless. God please do something! Hear my prayer!" I picked up a small baby and made my way outside to sit on the ground and rock her thirsty little body to sleep. She was SO thirsty. Can you imagine a room full of hundreds of sick and dying infants that are so thirsty but they can only have water at certain times of the day because there isn't enough "clean" water to go around? Can you imagine??  But through all of this pain, God is there. His Holy Spirit remains so strong around every crib and He is drawing us closer to Him, He is calling us, His people, to DO something. The sacrifice for His name sake.

I felt so helpless today. The "need" is so great I felt inadequate. As a dying infant laid in my arms I had no idea what to do but pray and lift my hands. Everything within me wants to change the situations that are before me but my flesh tells me the task is too great. The more I prayed the closer Jesus was and I felt Him so near. In all this pain, in all this sickness, malnutrition, and disease, He WILL be glorified. His name WILL be praised to the end of the earth, and I will be the one to take it there. Through every sick body, lives are being changed, His Holy Spirit is being made known, that is the beauty in it. And because of this, I will give one more kiss and one more hug. I will wipe one more tear and hold one more fragile hand. Because He IS faithful, I will remain confident in this...that He is coming back and soon, very soon, there will be no more pain, no more tears, and every mouth will have food and clean water. For Him I will sacrifice who I am, my desires, my needs, my time, so that one more life can hear and one more heart can be touched by His love. Jesus has invested His Holy Spirit within us and the SAME power that lived within Him lives within us! We are responsible to take His name to the world.

I will shout it out from the rooftop, I won't be quiet. I will shout His name until the whole world hears. He is faithful. He hears our prayers.